who would have thought...life goes on after heidelberg

This has been a crazy past 3 days of realizations and crazy situations. Everyone is really starting to get emotional about everything coming to an end. After all, we leave in less than a month. Our days now consist of words like 'we have to do this before we leave...', which last semester wasn't as sad as it will be this time. I had been in a somewhat stressful state earlier this week about school work and housing for next year. I found out that I wasn't eligible for housing where I had applied, and that would leave me without a place on campus. I found an alternate plan about living off campus in a rediculous house across from the beach, but for some reason I just couldn't be happy about it. But then last night I got an e-mail from housing saying that I WOULD be eligible and they wouldn't sweat me being 2 units short. This only caused more confusion.

In the end, I have decided to stick with our first plan of living on campus even though those plans had gotten wishy washy these past few days with the girls we were supposed to be living with. Before I realized where my loyalty should be, I remembered back when Stacy, our house mom, talked about a situation simular. She got a job, but then had the opportunity to leave it behind and take an even better one. She decided to stick with her first choice no matter what, and it ended up that she was rewarded for not changing her mind and moving on quickly to 'something better'. I automatically knew that we had to go back to our first plans. Ever since I made that decision I have felt a clarity that is oh so soothing! I hadn't felt this calm about things in a while, and I am so thankful and confident in the decision I made. I have a whole new outlook on 'loyalty' now, as I realize that I can't make my decisions based on what would be cooler or better.

Okay, enough about that drama. I have felt very uplifted these past few days, and I have been journaling like crazy and reading 'My upmost for His Highest' more than usual. I have found it way easier lately to put away my school work for later and focus on having my own quiet time. This has been a big struggle for me all year, but I finally feel like I'm getting things back together. It is such a blessing to have a calming feeling about me, especially as we get ready to leave and have to face life outside of our comfort zone. I am honestly scared about leaving, make that terrified. But I know that next year will be special in its own ways.

Okay okay, I promise I'm done talking...now for the good part...here are pictures from spring break!